My husband and I watched the movie Spotlight earlier this week. If you are not familiar with the movie, it is about the Boston Globe's investigative reporters reporting on the Catholic Church's abuse scandal. The film was hard to watch only because of the subject matter. In turns, I was reacting viscerally to the trauma-related by the … Continue reading Gratitude and Healing
Trauma
Safety or Comfort
I have been slowly reading through Emotional Agility. It is taking me a while to work my way through the book. I read some, and then I think about it. I have started to write in my books. Something that I did very seldom and only with textbooks when I was in college. I have opted for … Continue reading Safety or Comfort
Trauma, Depression, and Body Image
I bought a new journal. I purchased this journal to write down all the things I am trying to process and understand. I am trying to work through several things simultaneously. It is a lovely lined journal, a beautiful shade of maroon. And I think that I have begun to be afraid of it. I … Continue reading Trauma, Depression, and Body Image
Depression Check list
The last few weeks have been hard for me. My depression got a jump start due to a conversation that triggered some of my trauma responses. And then some other things happened that triggered more trauma responses. I call them trauma responses for the lack of a better term. My body reacts to the trigger … Continue reading Depression Check list
Trying to find a way through
Here where I live, Autumn has arrived. And the beauty of the change in woods where I live has eased my heart. It is beautiful to sit and revel in the colors of the leaves. I have been reading the book Emotional Agility by Susan David. It has been very illuminating. I am gaining a better understanding … Continue reading Trying to find a way through
The Strugle of Worth
I started re-reading The Gifts of Imperfection by Brene Brown. The first time I read the book, I only made it about halfway and hated it. The more I read, the angrier I felt. I couldn't understand what was so special. I was doing just fine; thank you very much. Here we are several years into the … Continue reading The Strugle of Worth
Why we need to revisit books
This morning I went for a drive with my husband. Some of my best conversations happen in cars. My family has told me that at home I am very distracted. I completely agree with them. I spend my time at home, paying attention to everything going on in the house, and interacting with every event … Continue reading Why we need to revisit books
Uncensored
I have censored myself throughout my life. While I was growing up, there was the censorship of not telling anyone about the abuse. There was always the need to censor what emotions I was displaying. As a child, I was not supposed to get mad or sad. My least favorite thing to hear was, "I'll … Continue reading Uncensored
Is this an attack or just a bad day?
Lately, I have been looking at my self and looking at the hard truths that I would rather not look at too closely. This weekend I had one of those realizations that shake the way I look at myself. I realized that I need to change how I frame things in my mind and in … Continue reading Is this an attack or just a bad day?
Our Bodies
Several months ago, my daughter started a group. It is just a small group, my daughters and I. We meet once a week to talk about our health. We talk about how we are doing physically, mentally, emotionally, anything that affects our health. The group is called Cuties Get Healthy. This past week we started … Continue reading Our Bodies
