Like everyone else, I spent the last few days of 2018 thinking about ways to change. I took a good look at what I was doing, who I had become and what I want to happen in the new year. I spent a lot of time looking at myself and seeing all the ways that I … Continue reading New Year, New Things
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Bringing Peace to Anxiety
After a long break in writing this blog I began to wonder why am I writing this or who am I writing it for. I started writing this to tell some of my stories and to just feel like maybe there was someone out there that this could help. Maybe there was someone who just … Continue reading Bringing Peace to Anxiety
Pain Box
Pain Box: a place where you put pain when you are not in a place or position to be able to allow others know that you are experiencing pain. When I was younger and having to go from day to day with varying amounts of pain depending on the level of abuse, I developed a … Continue reading Pain Box
Being Alive and Living
A few weeks ago I was faced with a serious health issue. One that required me to go to the hospital and receive emergency assistance. But before I made the decision to go to the hospital I had to make a choice. For the last several months I have been weighted down with deep exhaustion. … Continue reading Being Alive and Living
Relearning Self-Care
One should never underestimate the importance of self care. Those words make a very important statement. It is something that I have been failing to do for some months now. I have not taken time to do things that are healing or nurturing for myself in a very long time. As result I have slowly … Continue reading Relearning Self-Care
Dealing With Emotional Vampires
During this past week I had a really bad day. I dealt with emotional vampires and people just trying to make trouble. At the end of that day I just wanted to grab a bag of Oreos and just hide under my blankets. The day triggered a lot of depression issues for me and left … Continue reading Dealing With Emotional Vampires
A story of Panic
Once upon a time there was a dark cloud. He had no discernible from. He simply was. He could wrap himself around a person and fill them with fear so powerful that everything would quiet in their mind except the need to escape. This was his nature. One day he saw a girl. She was … Continue reading A story of Panic
Deciding not to hide
Usually what happens when I am severely stressed is that I go to ground. I block out the world and go into preservation mode. This means that I do only what is necessary to sustain my life and those around me. I cook meals, make sure everyone is fed and cared for. That is it. … Continue reading Deciding not to hide
Why I rarely say I am fine
I rarely say that I am fine when asked how I am. I say things like: I'm still here, still living, doing well, or one of those days. Pretty much anything. But I don't say I'm fine if I'm not. I stopped lying about myself a while ago.It all started off with a book I … Continue reading Why I rarely say I am fine
The Earth Breathes
The Earth Breathes I sat in the surf and let the water pass over meI felt the pull of the currentsAs they ebbed and flowedThe sand piled around mePlaced by the wavesI felt the breath of the earthIn each wave that moved over meBreathing me into its depthsReleasing the pressure in my heart I felt the wind … Continue reading The Earth Breathes
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