I often feel terror in the stillness of my chest. My first thought is that my heart has short-circuited again. So I try to quiet the feelings long enough to feel my heart and count its rhythm. Then I keep breathing. I keep pulling air in and letting air out. I do this as quietly … Continue reading Anxiety
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Finding the right word
When I wake up in the morning, I have a ritual that motivates me to get out of bed. The first thing I do is to read sacred writings. I do this to clear away some of the cobwebs, and also to give me a new direction to move my thoughts. The second thing I … Continue reading Finding the right word
Bringing Peace to Anxiety
After a long break in writing this blog I began to wonder why am I writing this or who am I writing it for. I started writing this to tell some of my stories and to just feel like maybe there was someone out there that this could help. Maybe there was someone who just … Continue reading Bringing Peace to Anxiety
Square pegs, round holes
Now that I have finished with school it is time to figure out how I will pay back my student loans. I have been offered a job where I have been doing my internship. However, I am uncertain as to whether this will be a good fit. I have spent the last 11 1/2 months … Continue reading Square pegs, round holes
Continuity
Lately I have been overwhelmed by stress and changes in the things around me. By the end of the day I am filled with extreme sensory overload. It sometimes reaches a point that the only thing that I can do is go to bed and hide under my covers for half an hour. After one … Continue reading Continuity
A story of Panic
Once upon a time there was a dark cloud. He had no discernible from. He simply was. He could wrap himself around a person and fill them with fear so powerful that everything would quiet in their mind except the need to escape. This was his nature. One day he saw a girl. She was … Continue reading A story of Panic
Safety
Safety is something that should never be discounted. Feeling safe has been a very integral part of healing. When I am unable to do something because I am afraid or the situation triggers panic for me I stop and try to see how to change it. I have learned that I am a triangle peg … Continue reading Safety
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