Sleep is one of the most incredible things in the world. There is nothing like a warm bed on a cold night or a pile of comfortable pillows to make into a nest giving you a snug and safe feeling. I love the feeling of slowly falling off to sleep and experiencing the snuggling comfort … Continue reading Sleep
Healing
Anxiety
I often feel terror in the stillness of my chest. My first thought is that my heart has short-circuited again. So I try to quiet the feelings long enough to feel my heart and count its rhythm. Then I keep breathing. I keep pulling air in and letting air out. I do this as quietly … Continue reading Anxiety
Going in a Little Different Direction
For the past few years, I have been randomly writing about healing and the ways I cope with life. After spending some time thinking about what to write (Which is why I haven't written in so long). I have come up with what feels to me to be a good plan. I have decided to … Continue reading Going in a Little Different Direction
Gratitude and Forgiveness
As with all new things, I have hopes and expectations. The New Year is no exception to this. Other years I have set up goals and tried to accomplish great feats. This year I have decided to do something different. It seems like everyone is talking about living a life of gratitude. On my meditation … Continue reading Gratitude and Forgiveness
Trauma, Depression, and Body Image
I bought a new journal. I purchased this journal to write down all the things I am trying to process and understand. I am trying to work through several things simultaneously. It is a lovely lined journal, a beautiful shade of maroon. And I think that I have begun to be afraid of it. I … Continue reading Trauma, Depression, and Body Image
Trying to find a way through
Here where I live, Autumn has arrived. And the beauty of the change in woods where I live has eased my heart. It is beautiful to sit and revel in the colors of the leaves. I have been reading the book Emotional Agility by Susan David. It has been very illuminating. I am gaining a better understanding … Continue reading Trying to find a way through
On Reading Duchess Goldblatt
To continue the theme of books I have been reading, I thought I would write about the book I just finished. At the beginning of June, I asked my family if they wanted to start a reading group. We played a pick a number type of decision matrix, and I got to pick the first … Continue reading On Reading Duchess Goldblatt
Overthinking
Recently I started reading a book called Don't Overthink It by Anne Bogel. Overthinking is something that gets me into more trouble than I want. Especially att his time of quarantine and unsurity. I have had bouts of agoraphobia in the past. Going to new or crowded places, not to mention closed in, are very anxiety-producing for … Continue reading Overthinking
Spirals
When I was young, I experienced a lot of art trauma, caused by the type of things that people say when you are learning to be creative. In my case it was the usual experience of having the teacher point out that the sky is blue, not green, or that the girl whose picture you … Continue reading Spirals
grieving
In February I started to have a difficult time. I say that what it was was a small breakdown. It probably was just that, a small breakdown. I realized that there parts of me that I had abandoned and cast aside because someone said something to me that, in essence, said I was wrong. Whether … Continue reading grieving
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