I attended a self-care workshop last summer. One of the books that the presenter suggested was The Power of Kindness by Piero Ferrucci. I dutifully found the book and purchased it. I put it on my shelf and thought about reading it. This is the way it goes with a lot of books with me. … Continue reading Finding Forgiveness in the Power of Kindness
Compassion
Talking About Things
Sometimes I wonder about whether I should talk about the fact that I have difficulty with some situations. There have definitely been some negative moments arising from talking about my issues. There have also been some very amazing growth experiences. I just spent four days in the hospital while the doctors tried to figure out … Continue reading Talking About Things
Pain Box
Pain Box: a place where you put pain when you are not in a place or position to be able to allow others know that you are experiencing pain. When I was younger and having to go from day to day with varying amounts of pain depending on the level of abuse, I developed a … Continue reading Pain Box
Being Alive and Living
A few weeks ago I was faced with a serious health issue. One that required me to go to the hospital and receive emergency assistance. But before I made the decision to go to the hospital I had to make a choice. For the last several months I have been weighted down with deep exhaustion. … Continue reading Being Alive and Living
My Daughter, My Hero
For the last few months I have been struggling. Struggling to write this blog. Struggling to find a peaceful place in my mind. Just struggling with everything. Then something began to change in my house. My daughter, who has been struggling with depression for a while started to do something different. She started to exercise. … Continue reading My Daughter, My Hero
My Sister
I am just going to come out and say that my father was a real piece of work. He was beyond abusive. He was evil. There are a lot of ways that abusers manipulate and control their victims. Turning siblings against each other is one of those ways. Only in this case the manipulation was … Continue reading My Sister
Pushing to hard
For the last few weeks I have been insanely busy. For those of you who have come by looking to see if there was anything new I apologize for the lack, and I will try to be more diligent in writing. For the last year I have been pushing myself very hard. I have tried … Continue reading Pushing to hard
How I want others to see me
I was going to write about what I would like people to know and understand about having PTSD. I deleted the whole thing. It felt like a rant and not something helpful at all. Although sometimes rants are helpful. But I would like to share instead all the positive things I feel that I have … Continue reading How I want others to see me
Stress is sneaky
Stress is sneaky.I go through the day and think that I am doing great. I walk out the door at my internship and get in my car, start the engine and begin the drive home. After about ten minutes there starts a buzzy feeling in my brain and I start to feel the stress that … Continue reading Stress is sneaky
Learning Acceptance
Back to acceptance. When I wrote about having compassion for ourselves and who we were it was important at that time to me. Yet with equal importance is acceptance. Something that I don't always do. I think that accepting myself is different from having compassion. But not by much.I was recently looking at pictures of … Continue reading Learning Acceptance
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