Every day is a win when I get out of bed. For the last nine months, I have struggled with depression. Some days are better than others, and some days I take getting out of bed as my only win. On the days it is hard to get out of bed, I wait until I … Continue reading It is always a win when you get out of bed.
Anxiety and Feeling Less than Myself
A few weeks ago, I went to the new cardiologist. I had been looking forward to seeing them since I was able to make the appointment. I had planned to make a day of it when I made the 2-hour drive to Burlington. The plan consisted of a well-chosen audiobook and a stop at the … Continue reading Anxiety and Feeling Less than Myself
Hiding
Depression has a way of sneaking up on me. I have been doing pretty well for a while on the depression front. I have had my low times and also some hard times. The darkness that I struggled through for much of the fall and winter was crushing but has passed. I felt like things … Continue reading Hiding
Sleep
Sleep is one of the most incredible things in the world. There is nothing like a warm bed on a cold night or a pile of comfortable pillows to make into a nest giving you a snug and safe feeling. I love the feeling of slowly falling off to sleep and experiencing the snuggling comfort … Continue reading Sleep
Remembering
These posts are pieces from the book on healing that I have been working on, and some of them were written months ago, while others are written more recently. remembering trauma I hate remembering the trauma. The process my mind has set up is usually heralded in by nightmares. I rate my nightmares on a … Continue reading Remembering
Fear
There may be aspects of this post that could be triggering for some people. Fear. It is what I wake up to in the mornings and what I go to bed with at night. It is underlying my every interaction. Fear is the devastating thing that eats at my body as I lie in the … Continue reading Fear
Anxiety
I often feel terror in the stillness of my chest. My first thought is that my heart has short-circuited again. So I try to quiet the feelings long enough to feel my heart and count its rhythm. Then I keep breathing. I keep pulling air in and letting air out. I do this as quietly … Continue reading Anxiety
Going in a Little Different Direction
For the past few years, I have been randomly writing about healing and the ways I cope with life. After spending some time thinking about what to write (Which is why I haven't written in so long). I have come up with what feels to me to be a good plan. I have decided to … Continue reading Going in a Little Different Direction
What am I doing to stay sane?
I read several blogs about books. One of the ones that I turn to regularly is Modern Mrs. Darcy. Yesterday she posed the question of what is saving us right now? At first, my response was reading. But the more I thought about it, the more I realized that that was not actually true. Though … Continue reading What am I doing to stay sane?
Learning to Listen
For several years now, I have been utilizing the Calm.com app for my meditations. I have a routine I try to follow every day when I wake up. I attempt to wake up, roll onto my back and find a comfortable position; then, I turn on the Calm meditation for the day. I follow this … Continue reading Learning to Listen
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